Cailtyn Jenner Opens Up About Her ‘Voice Issue’ and Speaking at 2015 ESPY Awards

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Caitlyn Jenner delivered a heartfelt speech at the 2015 ESPY Awards after accepting the Arthur Ashe Courage Award last week. And while some of us were moved to tears, Caitlyn admits that seeing herself speak when she watched the awards show was “a little difficult” — but for a different reason.

“It was a little difficult for me to watch myself,” she wrote in a blog post on her official website. “While I felt like I looked great and that the gown looked fabulous, I still have a voice issue. It’s not quite right compared to my feminine appearance. That bothers me a little bit. However, I hope that people don’t listen to the pitch of my voice, but listen to what I have to say. That’s important to me.”

While this is something that Caitlyn is still working on getting over, she also had to deal with reading the speech off the teleprompter. Living with dyslexia since childhood, reading aloud has always been an issue for Caitlyn. And even though she did a great job with the speech, Caitlyn admitted that she improvised a little bit.

“As a dyslexic kid, my biggest fear in life was to go in front of the class and read because I just wasn’t very good at it — and that stays with you through your whole life,” she wrote. “That’s why all of my speaking engagements through the years have been always off the cuff. I’m better off getting up there knowing what I’m going to say and doing it. But at the ESPYs, I really had to stick to the prompter because I only had a certain number of minutes to make it right, to get my points across. I practiced, and practiced, and practiced, and practiced to make sure I’d nail it.”

She then added, “For me to go out in front of a group like that and to do the whole thing off of the teleprompter was huge.”

After revealing all her fears about that night, she thanked everyone from the ESPN crew and glam squad to her family and fans.

You can read Caitlyn’s full post here.

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